Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Sunday, July 27, 2008
I am over it. I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of the never ending washing/laundry pile that requires washing/ironing/folding or drying. I'm sick of being the mum, the dad, the cook, shopper, cleaner, homework supervisor, speech therapist, toddler tamer, newly crown hairdresser as well as being a daughter and sister to my family as well as being a diligent, intelligent and engaging student. I feel like I'm losing a handle on all these juggling balls that I try and keep up. I don't have enough hours in the day nor enough patience, energy or brain power.
I'm sick of people whinging about their spouses - you've at least got one! I'm lonely and tired of being lonely, I'm tired of not having someone to share simple things like yarn colourways with. I'm sick of comments like "sometimes it's nice to live on your own" - yep, you think that because you live with your partner, daughter and her 2 little ones so yes your life is crazy but be thankful you have someone around to laugh with, chat with, discuss TV shows with. Similarly I take HUGE offence at pseudo-single-parent comments by someone whose husband is a chef and so works strange and long hours. You are not in any way, shape or form a single parent! I miss the physicality of having someone close to sleep next to. I miss it. Badly.
When I find the camera I'll take some piccies but I just wanted to say HHHOOORRRAAYY - 1 thing of the WIP list and I've frogged clappy today too so am on track with managing the list. It actally seems quite strange not to have anything big in the WIP list. I've got a 2 hour break between lectures on Mondays so tomorrow I'll cast on Mrs Toone's clappy again and make it my uni knitting project.
Friday, July 25, 2008
In other exciting news I've scored a sunnyboy bag from the wonderful quilting mick. Hopefully I'll be able to go to SnB next week and pick it up - these are selling like hotcakes so I feel lucky to have scored not one but two! The knitting WIPs are again a bit out of control so my project this weekend is to get the button band and sleeves on Helena, another slipper so I've got a pair, I've decided to frog the Bamboozle clapotis so I want to get that done as well. Spotlight seems to be having an end of season sale on yarn too and I couldn't resist trying some Lion Brand Cotton - $11.99 marked down to $4.99 so I'm hoping Charlotte will have a purple tank/dress for summer but we'll see what happens.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
When I was at the nursery today buying the strawberries that are no longer strawberries I was talking to the nursery lady about fruit/veges in pots and she also suggested ballerina apple trees which are smaller versions but which produce full size fruit but you have to have 2 trees for them to cross polinate and produce fruit and one of the varieties names is Charlotte. I think that's a sign - they've gone on the wish list for my birthday, I think one from each little person would be a nice thing.
In kidlet news Charlotte is booked in for the first week in September for her surgery. I'm scared because she is having a general anaesthetic but I know it needs to be done so now it's just chatting to her about what is going to happy and why. She has asked if Libby (her cabbage patch doll) is allowed to come with her so that Libby doesn't get 'heartbroken; (her terms!) while she is away. The surgeon seemed to be really good and had a great rapport with Charlotte so I'm hoping all will go well. I think the hardest part will be the fasting - she is allowed a light juice and toast brekky before 7am and then nothing until the surgery which I have a feeling she won't like. It has to be done and I'm hoping she'll be much better after it's all done. Fingers crossed.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
This blog has become somewhat of a therapist for me - somewhere to vent, celebrate and everything inbetween! I'm not someone who copes well on my own and I haven't had too until 18 months ago but slowly and surely I'm learning that I'm an OK person and that my own company isn't that bad. I still resent the way things are and how I got to be where I am but on the whole I'm a happy, well adjusted *well, almost well adjusted!* woman who is proud to be who and where she is. Well, most days anyway!
First day back at uni today. Uni lectures + 6 year old = disaster! He had his Ninetendo but I forgot the earphones so we had a battle over the sound of the game and in the end came home so I only managed to get through one lecture. My previous horror at assessment starting in week four has been trumped by absolute terror - I have an assignment due next week - week bloody two!
Child and adolescent health looks like it's going to be quite good and I'm really pleased that I've got the paeds placement because the assessment is a case study so it will be easy (I hope!) to link between my clinical experience and the case studies. The other two look OK too from the look of the unit outlines which is all I can go off.
I felted the slipper at mums on the weekend and I almost felted it too much! It fits and it's soooo warm and toasty. I've got a renewed motivation to finish the second one now although the WIPs are getting a little bit out of control so I'm hoping to get it back in order by the end of the month.
The latest swap over at woolaholics is themed - something new - so it has to be a project using a new technique not tried before. I've got a few ideas floating around and a few patterns bookmarked so I'm looking forward to the challenge of something new and different. My swap partner at Rav also got her parcel so that's one less thing to worry about!
Kidlets are all fine and good and dandy. Charlotte is off to the surgeon tomorrow so hopefully the news will be good and Izaak is back to school tomorrow which I'm really pleased about. 3 weeks off has been too long for him and we're both getting on each others nerves. We did go to the movies last week to see Narnia which was OK - not brilliant but good. School holidays are great but going back to school is fantastic too!
Friday, July 18, 2008
The 2nd slipper will be a reverse of colours to this one although I'm 99% sure I won't have enough of the purple left so we'll see what happens. It's currently up to the decreases in the heel section so if everything goes to plan I'll finish it off tonight watching the TDF. I blame avalonne for my new found TDF interest and consequential lack of sleep! ( in a good way of course!) I have to say, I've never been much of a TDF fan, infact, I've never taken any notice of it but this year I've been caught up and very interested in a number of KALs which seem to be happening and watching the progress of Bells and the dedicated TDF KAL blog I've been motivated to get things done and have had more FOs in the past week or so than in the previous few months!
Unfortunately it will all come to a grinding holt next week when I start back at uni - Chronic Illness, Child & Adolescent Health and Indigenous Health - will assessment starting in week 4 *shock*. Good news though - 1 of my subjects doesn't have a prescribed textbook *yah!*
Thursday, July 17, 2008
I cast on some felted slippers tonight too - I'm sick of having cold feet on the slate floor here and was inspired by the swap socks that I received but I'm not quite brave enough to try socks yet so slippers seemed to be the way to go and it also means I can use up some green and purple yarn that I've got laying around in the stash. Quick knit too. 3 hours of knitting tonight and I'm up to the toes on the first one but now it's off to bed for me.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Monday, July 14, 2008
Tonight after the bath I painted her toenails with polish which we've been doing on and off for months. Her face lit up and she announces "horay! now I'm like L*****". L is another little girl that she attends family daycare with. Then she announces she also needs stickers on her nails and requires fingernail polish as well.
I'm devastated. I was never one of the popular girls - I never had the right brand of clothing, bag etc and was never in the "in" group and that was one of the things that didn't really bother me too much because I had a core group of friends who were all a bit different - just like me. I was one of those girls who got along better with the boys which was also not the done thing when I was at school. The whole peer issue was one that I've become more aware of with Izaak going to school and although he is fairly insulated from it given his condition (he couldn't care less what anyone thinks!) I'm positive Charlotte will be alot different. I'm probably reading too much into the whole thing but I'm sad for Charlie. At 2 I want her to be thinking about playing, running and generally having fun, not about who does and who doesn't have nail polish! 2 of the girls at daycare see a fair bit of each other and their families outside of care so they do have a closer friendship - Charlotte is the 3rd wheel. According to her family daycarer there have been arguments lately between L, the other friend, J & Charlotte with much talk of who is "best friend" and who isn't and who is allowed to play with which particular girls. This has been consolidated by visiting my mum at work where 2 girls were sitting together having lunch (these are pre-schoolers so 4-5year olds) and one of the girls said to the other who was eating a packet of chips "you shouldn't eat them - you'll get fat". Where has childhood innocence gone?
2 years 8 months. 2 years 8 months and it's starting already!
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Saturday, July 12, 2008
The placements for clinical sites is out and I am doing my prac at.....
I'm so excited - orientation is in 2 weeks. I put paeds as my 1st preference but wasn't at all confident at getting it because a large number of students put it as their top choice. I'm so glad! Wish me luck!
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
On the knitting front I have been going hell for leather on Helena and since Sunday have gone from the cast on to almost 3 repeats through the lace section and hope to finish the lace before I head home. I have had some gauge issues though and so it is considerably longer than the pattern but I've decided it will be in a good - cool - jacket sort of way.
I've got a lovely forest green kid mohair that I had planned as a capelet but the yarn just isn't working with the pattern so back to the drawing board for that one. My aunt was recently visiting and wore my clapotis for an evening out on the town with my mum and loved it so today I've cast on a clappy for her in a Panda yarn called Lily which is a polyester/alpaca/acrylic blend which is quite nice to knit and the colours are coming out nicely. Set-up section done so far.
I think the wee ones and I will head home over this weekend - I'd love to be home for the fibre day at the old bus depot markets on Sunday and just feel like it's time for us to come home.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
and then this....
I've also finished of the finished the fingerless gloves for a swap that I'm participating in. Again, asked for a nice photo I got one of feet...
So these are the completed works for the week - not much but something at least!
My aunt and uncle arrive this afternoon so we'll be having a celebratory or commiseratory (is that even a word??) dinner as results are released at 3pm today and then tomorrow the kids and I will be heading up to Tamworth to visit family.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Called and booked the EEG that the doctors want Charlotte to have because of her seizures and they can fit us in right when the doctor wanted it done so that was great.
I also called the ENT surgeon - we're now going to see him on the 22nd of July. I'm hoping that soon after that she will be scheduled for the surgery but of course all this depends on finances. I can't afford private health cover and the public waiting list is over 18 months and she is a relatively high category because of the sleep apnoea so I'm not keen on waiting that long. Luckily I have amazing parents and a wonderful grandmother who has offered to help pay for her to have the surgery privately. It's when the little people are sick that I really feel the pinch of single parenting. Watching your 2 year old daughter have a seizure is awful but having no-one there to back me up or just watch her for a while so I can have a break/go to the toilet/get a drink/food is frustrating and tiring. This isn't how it was suppose to be. Enough of the whinging.
I finished my Aussie Swap today which is another WIP off the list now ;-)
I still can't get the gauge right for Helena so I cast on a beanie for mum that she's been waiting for since the OBDM yarn day and have got about a third of it done ;-)
The little people and I are heading off on Friday to my grandma's for a break. I need one. Desperately.
So much yarn, needles, fabric, patterns & WIPs will be packed and hopefully I'll get some 'work' done while I'm down there and hopefully it won't be as cold down there as it is here. Yesterday the BOM had the apparent temp at -3.3 at 11:00am - just a wee bit chilly! Nan has a wood fire so we'll be going with a bag of marshmallows to toast - yummo!
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
After the events of recent days and unwell little people I decided last night that I needed a few hours of ME time after the munchkins went to bed so I sat down to work on V2 of Mrs Toone's clappy. Did the set-up rows & first repeat of the straight rows before I realise I've made the same bloody mistake again! Frog it and re-ball the Noro (which, by the way, I think is going to be the most perfect colourway for her!)
So, I then cast-on for the other fingerless glove for a swap. Stuff that up twice, frog it back to the cast on, got it right but forgot to do the cable. Frog back to re-balling as well. I started Helena a while ago but I'd put one of the YO's in the wrong place and it was right in the front so I frogged that back and reballed it as well.
By this point I was seriously annoyed and had decided last night was NOT the night for knitting so I've balled everything back up and packed it all away.
Woolaholics is running a KAL (knit a long) with Helena so I will cast that on again tonight with the new Knitpicks needles (they are delicious by the way! I'm really impressed with them!). I'm taking the small people to Kid City tomorrow so I might get an hour or two of good knitting in while they tear around and wear themselves out - that's the plan anyway!
Oh and I cast on and finished the other glove during the day today without making a single mistake!