Sunday, July 27, 2008

A brain explosion/rant/vent/whatever

This post is a rant. A complete and total whinge so if you're not up for it please move onto another blog.

I am over it. I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of the never ending washing/laundry pile that requires washing/ironing/folding or drying. I'm sick of being the mum, the dad, the cook, shopper, cleaner, homework supervisor, speech therapist, toddler tamer, newly crown hairdresser as well as being a daughter and sister to my family as well as being a diligent, intelligent and engaging student. I feel like I'm losing a handle on all these juggling balls that I try and keep up. I don't have enough hours in the day nor enough patience, energy or brain power.

I'm sick of people whinging about their spouses - you've at least got one! I'm lonely and tired of being lonely, I'm tired of not having someone to share simple things like yarn colourways with. I'm sick of comments like "sometimes it's nice to live on your own" - yep, you think that because you live with your partner, daughter and her 2 little ones so yes your life is crazy but be thankful you have someone around to laugh with, chat with, discuss TV shows with. Similarly I take HUGE offence at pseudo-single-parent comments by someone whose husband is a chef and so works strange and long hours. You are not in any way, shape or form a single parent! I miss the physicality of having someone close to sleep next to. I miss it. Badly.

9 comments:

Jejune said...

Not much I can say to make it better, apart from sending you hugs, and wondering if there's any way you can get some time out to recharge your batteries?

And I also know that can seem impossible, and that life isn't fair or kind, and there's only so much that one person can take... (((hugs)))

Michelle said...

I'm sending you hugs too. I honestly don't know how you do it - I am flat out keeping up with myself and the mister, let alone kifs, study and not having the spare set of hands.

If you ever need a (strong) cup of coffee and a time out in between breaks at uni, give me a call and see if I'm home - I'm in Downer so only 10 minutes from uni. I'm usually home. I'll send you my phone number in an email.

sue said...

Sometimes it is good to have a rant, let out all the frustrations which most of us have in some form or another. Just think that something good is going to follow all the crappyness your feeling now. I wish I lived closer so I could help you out a bit.

Lou's Mum said...

hugs Bec. I can only imagine how hard/lonely it must be at times.

remember it won't always be this way. rant away whenever you feel like it - best to get these things out!

Georgie said...

Sending hugs too. I am honestly in awe of how you manage - I have a work-at-home partner who is amazing and I feel overloaded sometimes, so I can't even begin to know how you cope.

You know where I am if you need anything.

Caffeine Faerie said...

Big, BIG Hugs.

You've got friends when you need us. And you're absolutely amazing to be able to do what you do.

Thinking of you...

Bells said...

Rant read and understood. Not because I have your situation but because I know the burdens that weigh us down sometimes just become all too much.

I'm here, too. Anytime.

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Mandi said...

Oh gorgeous girl, you know what, I do not claim to understand any of what your going through, but i'm sending you loads of love and hugs your way! You know where I am if you need an ear ok!!